We are more connected than any generation in history. And more isolated than ever. Something went wrong — and it wasn’t you. Modern life has normalised chronic stress, invisible labour, and loneliness — especially for women carrying everything. You weren’t built to do this alone. And you were never supposed to.

MY STORY

My childhood was mostly happy. Then my first panic attack arrived — and my whole world changed. Suddenly I was anxious about becoming anxious. It spiralled. And it didn’t stop for 25 years.

Looking back, I understand why. My father was in and out of our family home. My mother, Japanese by culture, never once said she loved me. I grew up in an environment my nervous system had to constantly read and predict. It learned early to stay alert.

Life added more weight. And the loss I will never fully put down — my son, Finias Akimitsu, whose name means Autumn Light. We call him Fin. I left St George’s hospital empty handed — screaming and crying in a way I didn’t know my body was capable of. Fin is woven into everything I do.

Meanwhile I’d been quietly building a relationship with health for over 25 years. It started when I began putting on weight as a teenager and my GP refused to help — I wasn’t “fat enough” to warrant support. So I figured it out myself. Blood sugars, food, the whole body, toxic load at home. The system wouldn’t help me, so I helped myself. I went to CNM to make it official. The knowledge had been lived long before the qualification.

When I qualified as a health coach in 2023, I noticed a pattern I couldn’t ignore. My clients knew what they wanted to change. They just couldn’t do it. Not because they lacked willpower — but because they were already on the edge of burnout. It was never a diet problem. Once you see it, you see it everywhere.

Then I did what so many women do. I paused what was working and chose what looked sensible on paper. Thirteen months in the NHS — patient-facing, inside an acute hospital, watching what happens when we wait until people are in crisis. During that same time, my daughter Seren was going through serious health challenges of her own. Every hospital admission set me back further. I left in September 2025. Broken. But finally ready to stop.

I stopped looking for the one big thing that would fix me. Instead I made small, honest changes. Slowly, my body began to learn that it was safe.

I went on holiday and actually relaxed. Properly. Even the flight. I drove on the motorway alone — something I’d never done without another driver in case I panicked. Small things. Everything things.

After 25 years, my anxiety is gone.

What would your life feel like if your body felt calm and safe on an ordinary day? Not a spa day. Not a holiday. Just — any day.

I didn’t have one breakthrough moment. I had a hundred small ones. And that’s exactly what I guide women through.

I want to reach you before the wall. But if you’ve already hit it — you’re still exactly in the right place.

Diploma Level 5 qualified health coach · CNM Ambassador · Personalised Care Institute Accredited